updates

Hello Lovelies!
I've been AWOL for a while and I've missed so many of your daily adventures!
Congratulations Kelly on your epic weight loss and your bikini!!! You are awesome.
Holly, I'm sorry to hear about your Nana.
Here is the latest with me. Since Nov. 2011 I've been suffering from a variety of symptoms from migraines, anxiety and palpitations to daily headaches and hormonal craziness.  In addition to everything else that life throws at you.
 I have now been diagnosed with Daily chronic headache and menstrual migraine. I have fallen into a bit of a depression wondering if I will ever feel "good" again. I was frustrated that I couldn't do everything that I wanted to do and that I wasn't having painfree days, and I worried about how I would manage the future if it involved daily pain. However, I have found a new medication that is helping with the daily headache and so far haven't had a migraine in 2 weeks , although the medication makes me bone -weary, exhausted for several hours a day, I'm trying to learn when I can take it so that it minimizes the headaches but also minimizes the exhaustion.  I am grateful though for so many things as I have met many people on fb who suffer so much worse than I do, with chronic debilitating migraine pain and terrible side effects from the medication they take,   People who don't have the money to pay for their meds, who's insurance doesn't cover the number of meds they need, people who don't have family/friends who will help them, people who have been living with this terrible disease far longer than I have.
I don't know what the future holds for me, for my headaches/migraines, my quest to become a Holistic Health Practitioner, to become a home owner. I do know that right now i'm not in a place to continue blogging. I won't continue to blog when I'm feeling unhappy/scared/unsure... I don't want to burden all of you with these feelings - we all have our demons to overcome. So when I am in a better place I will return and hopefully you'll still be around.
Happy summer to all of you!!

Quickie

Okay - migraines are gone for this month. I have 3 choices to make before my TOM to try to control the migraines. A birth control with hormones that flux, this is what I was on for YEARS, it allows me to go period free for 3 months at a time, thus avoid the hormonal migraines, a birth control with fixed hormones that many migraineurs have had luck with - nuva ring. Anyone tried it? Down side, a period every month but this will probably be my first try. Then the crazy one, procardia, a bp med that is used as a migraine preventative BUT and here's the insane part, I have LOW bp, like 91/63. So if I take a bp med it may lower my bp even more, FUN FUN FUN, then I may pass out - did I tell you I suffer from occassional anxiety?! But its ok 'cause I'll probably have to take a salt pill to raise my bp to counteract the preventative! Look out birth control here I come.
I still have chronic tension headaches but I can manage these.
Lately I've been reminded of how lucky I am to be able to take a pill to get rid of my migraines.  My mom's friend and neighbor died 4 months after being diagnosed out of the blood with pancreatic cancer, I learned of two young boys at my kids school who are battling cancer, I learned of a young mom near us who was diagnosed with ALS while pregnant 2 years ago.... So today, I feel good so I will ROCK this day on the bad days I will baby myself and not feel badly about it!
In 30mins my mom and dad (who are in town, YEAH) and I will garage sale, then I'll take my dd to tennis lessons and then I will finish a paper, the last one to renew my teaching certificate AND then I can get into my holistic health practitioners box of books, dvds, cds..... to start myself down my new path. 
A few more random things, my friend Lanie Panie is on a new path too, if you are interested in health check out her blog http://healthyschmealthy.blogspot.com/2012/06/after-2-12-weeks-of-iin-training.html

Kelly has inspired me to press the checkout button at Athleta.com to buy this cute skirt that makes me feel FUN, in razzle purple http://athleta.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=46842&vid=1&pid=214985

Here is my most pinned pin on pintrest this week. http://pinterest.com/pin/86131411593920966/

Have a great weekend lovelies!!