Bad Days again

I have to write this here because I can't do it anywhere else.  today was day 6 of migraine world. they go away for a day  but they come back and the postdrome fog and depression is bad, now my neck aches from all the migraines and my emotions are so unstable I can't stop crying which makes my head hurt and that makes me cry more.  My doctor says I will stable out when my hormones stable out but I feel that i might go crazy before that happens. I want to take the birth control pill again b/c they'll make the migraines go away for a bit, yes I know they are a class 1 carcinogen but even cancer sounds better than the emotional hell I've fallen into. CRAZY with all caps I know.

Tonight my youngest has a double header ball game, then another game tomorrow, I have to help with field day tomorrow and then drive my oldest to a competition all day Saturday.  Maybe these responsibilities are a good thing, otherwise I might curl up in my bed all day long.  Where did the happy days of good health go?

Have a good day my blogger friends, I'm off to fight the craziness, maybe it'll help to keep moving (teacher gifts to buy, baseball gloves to buy, hair to cut/highlight, toes to paint, knox to buy for synchro, house to clean, paper to write for course - there really isn't time for crazy).

Just a quick edit not - I'm starting to feel a little better, no more tears for now. Getting some shit done.

Whatcha Reading

I don't have a WTF Wednesday like Laura and Drazil - except for a WTF is with th e4 migraines I've had in the past week. Enough already! HORMONES!!!! Seems I'm not in perimenopause after all, I'm fertile as ever. WTF that's scarier than starting early menopause!!!

I'm trying something a little different here. In an attempt to avoid the 2 courses I have to finish (not my health practitioner courses) I am reading. Here's what's on my kindle today.

So, I recently finished the story of Scott Bolzan, "My Life Deleted"
He is an ex NFLer who slips in the bathroom at work and winds up with the worst case of retrograde amensia his doctors have ever seen.
To the best of my knowledge he still hasn't regained any of the memories of his life before 2008! FREAKY! Its an interesting story of becoming aware of yourself. Inspiring.

I have also succombed to the hype that is "50 Shades of Grey"
After hearing many ladies talk about how great this book is supposed to be, erotica, porn for women..... I decided it certainly couldn't hurt, and could possibly help (if you know what I'm saying!) so I bought the kindle copy.
So 85pgs into the book (which has 514), I'm interested. Christian Grey is THE man. So far nothing earth shattering but  the author paints a very controlled, in charge, confident picture of this man that I'm falling for him too. Strangely, I keep picturing him with grey hair even though he's described as having copper colored hair. Maybe its the title. Have you read it yet?  I'm not sure about it, as I flip through the pages I'm catching snippets of dominence.....  but that's about 30 pages from where I am so I'll update you as I go.

Bunch of Randomness

 Ahhh its been a while. We've been crazy busy with sports. Here's my little man at the plate. He hit a double the other day and he's the youngest on the team. Most of the boys are a year older. Proud Mama!!

This is his very cute, very young coach.

I feel so old. At least I'm not old enough to be his mom (almost but not quite).

These are my babies. They were orphaned and now we're fostering them. The little critters need to be fed every 1hr! What the hell was I thinking!!!!!!

Health stuff

I've been doing really well now that the doc suggested I use progesterone cream as I'm off the bc pill. Its been helping alot with the anxiety I used to get and the headaches but yesterday I got a migraine and dumb ass that I am, I tried to use 2 excedrin and then extra magnesium and then a peppermint stick to get rid of it b/c I don't like taking prescript meds. Well of course I ended up having to take the max dose of my migraine pills and then had palps all night. I think I slept from 1:30 - 4:30 only. Needless to say I'm an emotional basket case this morning. I still don't have my bloodwork results back from my doctor but my hormones are definitely doing something crazy.

I have school work to do, and not the fun, holistic kind I'm so excited to start - here's the box of books that arrived on Sat!! I'm being disciplined and not opening it until I finish the other two!

A New Direction

I have been a teacher for almost 18 years.  I am finishing up 2 online courses to renew my teaching certificate in this state, as I used to teach in Canada.  I'm not ready to give up on my chosen career after spending soo much time, energy and $$ getting here but I amd moving in new directions.
After a variety of crazy minor health experiences this past year I've come to realize how much I value healthy alternatives to modern medicine. Believe me I'm not against modern medicine, I have lots of fabulous, reliable meds in my cabinet but I love that I have choices through Eastern medicine that can help much of what plagues me.  SO I am going back to school (online, study in my pjs school) to become a Holistic Health Practitioner, GCNM.
I'm so excited to learn more about vitamins, minerals.... Here are the modules I get to study.

Module I
Basic Human Anatomy
Medical/Herbal Botanical Terminology
Toxicity and Detoxification
Dietary Guidelines

Module II Orthomolecular Nutrition
Weight loss
Alternative Healing Methods
Alternative Diagnostic Methods

Module III Environmental Medicine
Energy Work
Body-Mind Medicine
Drug-Herb-Vitamin Interactions

Module IV Common Ailments: Prevention and Treatment
History of Herbal Medicine
Eastern Medicine
Western Herbal Medicine

Module V Botany and Plant Identification and Harvesting
Making Herbal Remedies
Materia Medica/Therapeutic Herbalism
Business Procedures & Jurisprudence

Module VI Case Studies Consultant’s Guide to Analysis

I get to make herbal remedies in Module V and I have to send one in for grading!! All I can think about is Potions class in Harry Potter (I'm such an HP geek). 

My box of books and CDs.... should arrive in 1 week. Can't wait to show you everything I get!!!

BYOC - Bring Your Own Crazy!

BYOC - Bring Your Own Crazy!

1. Do you have any Mother’s Day traditions?

• We used to go to my moms for dinner but then we moved 5hrs away so now I try to find a fabulous gift and card to convey just how wonderful she is and send it to her. For me - often it involves buying plants and hoping my hubby remembers to take the kids out shopping for me - last year I took matters into my own hands and took the kids to pick out a pandora charm and bought myself a pandora necklace.

2. Do you take a daily vitamin? Why or why not?

• Several in fact. I take Magnesium, feverfew, B2 and B6 because they are supposed to help prevent migraines. I also take CoQ10 and fish oil - I really believe they are helping me stay at my current weight as they improve the efficiency of your metabolism. I have a love hate relationship with modern medicine and try to be as natural as possible.

3. Do you wear perfume every day? If yes, what kind?

• I don't wear much lately since my migraines gave me trouble but when I do I love Diamonds, Princess and a Mary Kay one - Bella

4. When you walk or run or work out outside – what do you take with you?

• MP3 player and my phone. I'm not gone long enough to need a water break - 3.1miles and often I run a 1.1 mile loop past my house 'cause my kids are sometimes home when I go.

5. Repeat question. Summarize your week.

• Its been pretty good. I am up to date on all my courses. I did have a migraine but the meds cleared it up so that's ok. Bring on the weekend.

Happy Harry Potter Birthday

My oldest turned 11 this month and had a Harry Potter themed birthday yet again. (3rd or 4th year running!)
However, because I love HP too we went gung ho.
Here is the marshmallow fondant I made to cover the cake. It looks just like regular fondant but because its only made out of marshmallows and powdered sugar it tastes SOOO much better!


This was the cake. I say was because it fell apart and we had to turn it into cake pops.

Here's the large cake pop Snitch

And here are the regular size Snitch cake pops.
I covered them with edible gold dust, then added the gold
sprinkles.  I think they turned out ok - and tasted
good too.

Kelly asked about Butterbeer so here it is. I found a recipe for Butterbeer - cream soda and butter flavoring. Some kids drank it, it wasn't like the Butterbeer at The Wizarding World of Harry Potter at Universal Studios but it was ok.

These little hand santizers went into the loot bags. I created HP potions using an idea from Etsy and my own ingenuity. There was Doxicide, Wolfsbane, Skel-Gro, Amorticia - Love Potion and Polyjuice. My DD loved them and insisted that I make a full set just for her!

These little cereals were set up for the morning. I didn't manage to get a picture before the girls got to them so this is what was left over.

All the girls had a great time and its over again for another year.  I think we're renting a place for son's birthday, I really only have the creativity and energy for one full on birthday! :)